Emma, you couldn't be more right THERE'S NO PLACE LIKE HOME!

So, drove all day Monday, worked from 7-8 yesterday w/o a real break, from 7-8ish today, my diet coke (ewwww that's right no pepsi in this hole!) is frozen and I cannot drink it even.

My shoulders ache and I miss my family. Perhaps that is why I am so cranky. I think I was a little hard on the Shirring. I know you were trying to help. Just got super deffensive. You know what that should tell you? Is that I am worried about not being a good mom, so I jumped all over the poor guy when he was trying to ease my guilt. Dude, you are a great guy, didn't deserve that. It wasn't about you, it was about what is going on inside me. You still and always RULE!

I had two glasses of wine with dinner, after actually sleeping for about 5 hrs last night, I realized that nothing could take the place of alcohol for getting me to relax. So, with a little luck, I will sleep at least 5 or 6 tonight.

I'm glad everyone is reading me while I'm away. Sorry for the hostility, it really isn't me. I am just frustrated I guess, with the situation that I am in.
It is stupid for me to be here, better decisions in the workplace could've made this unnecessary. That's all. My kids are doing just fine, as much as I am struggling. They miss me, but they talk to me without getting weepy. I'm very proud. Proud of my husband too, for doing a great, really fantastic job with them. He's great. I cannot wait to see all of them. It will go quickly the work days are flying because there is so much to do, I'm like a machine and there are very very few interruptions.