Deep Thoughts.
Well, people are dying. In the last week my former secretary's mother, my mother's older sister, and a coworker have passed. Jeez, nothing like that to remind you that your time here is finite. The worst part was the coworker (for messing with my head that is) because the way it has been discussed is so casual. I keep picturing it was me instead of him and my colleagues saying," Oh, you know, did you hear? Mary died." without an ounce of emotion. I'd like to think I have friends here after 13 years, but I've seen a number of coworkers pass in that time and the reaction is often so, small. Like the person didn't matter or didn't exist. Like their death has absolutely no impact on anything or anyone. It messes with me. Some have assured me that if it were me, the reaction would be different. I'm friendlier, more open etc... but. Well, I just don't know. And it's not like people being more sad would make me any less dead, but maybe it would show that my life touched others, and that I changed the world a little bit? Hmmm
posted by Pepsiqueen! @ 3:28 PM
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It's really hard for me to get emotional over someone I barely know.
I hope that didn't seem cold. Did it?
The problem about work colleagues passing is that everyone is expected to still do their jobs so I think folk just compartmentalise.
Ain't right, but it's the way it is.
I heard a saying once, and I've been trying to live my life like it since, which is something like "Live your life everyday so that come your last, even the undertaker is sorry."
No it didn't sound cold, and I'm pretty unmoved as well. But I think about if I were to die suddenly, and I think about people discussing it with the same tone that they discuss the weather or something. It's very disturbing. I can't explain it I guess.
Phil,
I don't think that in this case that applies (maybe with one or two others) but nobody is having a hard time working. It's not that they are doing the work in spite of the bad news. It's as if nothing even happened. Totally. There is no dark mood, or unspoken sadness, just nothing.
Well, I'd notice if you died suddenly. And be less than peachy.
But you ain't, so it's shiny. You're going to pass a very old woman with many grandchildren around you and after many years of light hearted flirting with me.
Glenn,
This is all very true, and I think I am well liked around here. Hopefully I won't have an untimely demise, and as Phil has suggested I will be around for many years and grandchildren and all.
Phil, wasn't it you who said recently that it wasn't flirting?
Anyway, I didn't realize you were planning to keep this up until one of us dies ;-)
Did she have bad hygiene or something?
Not that that's an excuse
I am extremely emphatic (dangerously so) so not only would I notice but I would be extremely upset
Glenn, I don't remember, did everyone leave her there bc she was a bitch? Geez, I still would've notified security (at the very least).
NR thanks!!
Bad hygiene, reminds me of the old man at drugmart and how I didn't want to give him mouth to mouth, but I did help with the cpr, and he lived.
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